Gay/lesbian/male identity/ female identity.

Gay/lesbian/male identity/ female identity.

I was in Toronto riding the subway during pride week, I got into the subway and sat down and started to watch and Be as I usually do. I was there when I started to feel uneasy and my head said …I’m uneasy around gay people….I right away put it down and questioned it. If you feel uneasy around gay people or lesbian for women it is your male/female identity being threatened and all the concepts you have in your head about the polarities. Put them all down on paper and question them all one by one until you have dis-identified from most of them. You will find that most of them are deeply Unkind and Unloving, as long as you hold that in your mind you are unkind and unloving yourself. No matter what your justification is, religion etc…. if you breed unkindness it’ll only create unkindness back. And by the same token it’ll force you to dis-identify and step back from you own Mind and your own concept of being a man or a woman. And ….NO….you won’t become gay or lesbian if you are less identified  with your gender or all the concepts and role playing around  it … you will still be you ,..and you will have a natural step back.. Finally, in regards to the Moral aspect, in truth I’m telling you…  a gay or lesbian person is just as immoral as being straight …Ultimately  being half beast/half human is what’s Immoral, is what is not Right. So, in truth, whether you are straight or gay you need to dis-identify from forms  so that you can feel Being. Therefore just like straight people, dis-identify from the constant fantasizing, the role playing , the fakeness, the acting filthy and thinking it is so cool…etc….that people do  whether straight or gay…it is all too much mental weight and actually prevent you from feeling  ..actually Feeling your body instead you are “ enjoying the idea” of “ having sex”…. Look at me ….I’m so cool , I’m having sex… I’m the man , ,et c….once you remove most of the “ mental junk” … it becomes less “ extra ordinary , less amazing ,….less cool…. But actually more Real , deeper, more Intimate…Truer… closer to the heart … further away from the Head…and more HERE. NOW. It is happening when it is happening NOW…, once it is OVER ….it is OVER ….you mentally linger less  on it…don’t spend hours fantasizing and hallucinating beforehand and hours fantasizing some more afterwards…you are  more PRESENT.

And finally, I have talk to some transgender, and asked them ..what’s actually going on in your head, or how do you feel? .. some told me that they have always felt like the opposite sex, others told me that they felt like they were in the wrong body.

In truth, that is the affliction of ….Lack of Being…., most straight also feel like they are in the wrong body, probably Women more often than Men .., but there is a constant “ Uneasiness”  , a constant dis-ease… It is just that for straight people it is  let’s say a 2 or 3 ….on a scale of maximum 10… and for  trangender it is way more acute or intense 6..7… What I would advice that you do if you are someone feeling like you are not in the right body or that you feel  like you r gender is not the right one, I would advice that before you decide to go and do any surgery you put down all your thoughts about gender and keep breaking all of them. It is Your Mind which is the wrong body, it is a mind which is fully identified with form, with matter, that’s what is experienced as “ un-ease”, ‘ dis-ease” .. so cure your mind and not only will you awaken , not only will you feel like you can finally “ breathe”..you can finally Be , can finally rest … you might suddenly not want to do surgery and change your body , you might suddenly feel okay with your body, might feel well in your own skin maybe for the first time ever.